Like the Fool in the tarot deck, I came to Japan with a certain naivety, innocence and sense of adventure. My eyes were filled with wanderlust. I had left most of my possessions behind and only brought the bare necessities with me. It was scary – letting go of everything that I knew. I was afraid of the unknown. What if it was far worse than what I had?
Most people love the idea of being a ‘boss’. They want nothing more than to be ‘in charge’. They love being the top dog, the alpha, the one that runs the whole show. Unfortunately, most people want to rule over others. They have no idea how to lead others. This isn’t surprising. Leadership isn’t a subject that’s taught in school or a skill that’s actively encouraged.
“Every time you go down the rabbit hole,” she says. “You take me down with you. You take us all down with you. Must you destroy everything you create?”
We know its bad for us, but we still do it. Cigarettes. Alcohol. Pornography. Drugs. Gambling. Eating disorders. Abusive relationships. The list doesn’t end there. So many of us are addicted to harming ourselves. But why do we do it?
The waking life and the world of dreams. These days, we largely think of the former as ‘real’ and the later as ‘make believe’. But this was not the case to ancient Egyptians. To them, the two worlds were invariably intertwined.
I call her the Wanderer. She resides in every single one of us. She knows no fear for she has faith. She needs no possessions to feel safe. She enters the Wildwood with courage and curiosity. She loves life. She begins each day with a sense of adventure. She doesn’t need anyone to take the plunge with her – for this journey is hers and hers alone.
How many women are encouraged to be the Queen of Wands? When we decide to be independent – marry late (if ever), make our own money, and go after what (and who) we want in a straightforward manner; people of both genders label us as aggressive and call us all kinds of nasty names. Both men and women seem to have a vested interest in forever dousing the fire in our hearts with water.